My Life At This Point

      It has been a while since my last post. Thought I would see if I could clear my mind enough to put some thoughts down. My life has taken a drastic turn. Not one I was expecting this soon either. Since the loss of my job in 2009, I have spent many hours with my husband. Especially since at the time his work was more seasonal, until his health wouldn't even allow him that. We spent all our waking hours together, crafting, walking, or getting on each others nerves. Nevertheless, it was nice to have that companionship with someone who understood my Gemini personality and accepted it, even overlooked it at times. He was a true Taurus, stubborn and bull headed about some things , but loving and true to the end. Even though he has passed on, I still see him in every room of the house or anywhere I go that we once went together. I even dreamed of him a few nights ago, he told me he knew I loved him, that he loved me too, and he did not pick the time or mean for it to end this way. I woke up feeling his love even more than before. But he was happy and healthy in my dream, not in constant pain, and his arms felt good there. I will carry that dream with me forever. It was like he knew I needed that reassurance of our love to continue on with whatever lays ahead for me now. Thank you sweetheart for those words of love and thank you God for allowing me that little piece of mind. Now I only hope that I can move forward and be strong enough for whatever is next and hopefully in the end be reunited with my sweetheart for all eternity.